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Acknowledge your Shadow

The past two days for me have been super intense. I’ve cried more in the past 48 hours than I have all year. However, I’ve needed it. I am grateful. Honestly, I am. I welcome the release. I need the weight of it lifted.

It’s taken 41 years for me to allow my Shadow Self to have devotion and relevance to honor her fully and let her all the way out sometimes. She’s here, and she’s pissed.

The area we are in is simply no longer energetically sustainable, not for our hearts, not for our mental health, not for spiritual growth…not for anything. While my 5D expands inward my 3D is stagnant and frustrating. My Shadow has been trying to tell me that for months while I keep trying to make peace with my circumstances, so She eventually screamed it.

Ironically, I hadn’t discussed this in ages with my husband. I didn’t want to seem ungrateful. Apparently all my Shadow needed was to bask in his Shadow because he feels the same way. A quiet man articulated the pain I couldn’t find the words for as I realized he too carried it. We made a horrible mistake moving to WA. Both of us looked at the other in shame and found a glimmer of hope as we realized our pain wasn’t solitary. I stood there andd suddenly realized I’m forming a spiritual connection with soul that doesn’t acknowledge his spirituality. So there’s still expansion even in the darkness.

We long for home, we miss comfort, warmth, sweetness, ease, and space…room to breathe. What we long for doesn’t exist where we are, and there is just no way to create an entirely culture that fits. We feel locked in a totally futile pattern surrounded by absolute apathy.

Our Shadow sides needed to be seen and heard and not just held individually but held by each other.

Pray for me and my family as we manifest a way back home to NC. All while we hold space for 10 months of Kindergarten here and what’s best for our child yet not absolutely breaking on the inside of ourselves. It seems the Universe wants to keep us here for awhile and we don’t understand or want that but are diligently trying to hang on, gracefully.

I post things like this so you don’t just get my highlight reel. There are very few authentic and unfiltered people left in this world and I long to be one. I love and am loved by many an authentic soul in this space. Most of the time, emotionally, I am up or at least even and balanced and I care enough about myself and you to show you when I am not.

Sending so much love and humbly asking for it back

0 In Acceptance/ Be Gentle/ Compassion/ Devotion

Let Devotion Carry You

Devotion will carry you farther than discipline ever will.

Devotion is something you get to do, you choose to do, you enjoy doing. 

Devotion is seeing life as an exquisite privilege.

You can find joy in the most mundane of tasks if you CHOOSE to. 

Discipline, for me, requires me to stay on task for something I am forcing.

Devotion is the heart, discipline is the mind telling the heart what it needs to do.

All of last year, I kept a rigid meditation schedule. I can count the number of times I slept past 5:00am last year on one hand. I turned my practice into something I HAD to do. I would feel like crap if I didn’t have time to keep my rigid routine, and I completely lacked compassion towards myself if I missed my routine. 

Life happens! Kids get sick, you’re tired, energy fluctuates. Your frequency changes. I’m not a Sage in a cave. I’m a Mama, Wifey and Entrepreneur. Everyday is different. Hard plans don’t work for me.

Yesterday, I was up at 4:19am and spent all morning in meditation, made fresh juice, had all my supplements and vitamins and took a walk before anyone in my house was awake. Today, I spent the morning with my husband and rolled out of bed around 8am and ate a chocolate truffle while I made toast. 

BOTH were good mornings. BOTH nourished my soul. 

It’s not this OR that. 

It’s this AND that! 

You are literally Divine, everything you do is Divine. You are Divine right now this minute. You don’t have to do anything to be Divine. 

I’m releasing the “have to’s” of everything and simply just embracing life. I live for today. I can meditate at 5am or 5pm. I can feed my body healthily with love and still enjoy food. You can embody a high frequency and still find magic in being human. We worry so much about fixing things or not effing up things that we forget to enjoy things. Life is more than meeting goals and milestones and taking the next course. You can hear your own soul when you cut that noise down a bit. 

When you release that need for control, what’s meant for you comes to you. Joy is the greatest power to attract everything and anything you want. You can can just choose it. It’s so profoundly simple.

Devote yourself everyday and allow that devotion to be what you need that day and that moment. The flow that devotion creates will take you farther than discipline ever will. 

0 In Acceptance/ Be Gentle/ Compassion/ Sacred Self-Care

Compassion is better than Consistency

I have heard “Consistency is key”, sooooo many times over the past year. Anything and everything you could ever want is on the other side of consistency. Consistency for more money, weight loss, manifestation, etc.

You know what, I am sure it is. For me though, I am striving for compassion not consistency. Consistency for me needs to be built on compassion, especially self-compassion.

Right now, I can’t hold consistency. I can hold intention, but constant consistency and planned productivity…I simply don’t have the space. I have my daughter full time as of next week, I’m going through some big medical stuff, I am not sleeping well, and for a good long while I’ve been dismissing these very real reasons as excuses. Using unkindness and an ego-based push to stretch myself beyond the boundaries of what I can actually hold. Push, break, reset, push, break, reset over and over until I can’t breathe and feel completely disconnected from everyone including my own soul.

You know what…Eff that. I’m so over it.

I’m done. I rested in May, and I am only holding what I can from now on. That’s ok, because I am releasing my worth being unjustly intertwined with my bank account balance. I am not chasing 10k months and 5k weeks, I’m just tryin’ drink my water, sleep through the night and entertain my kid. I’ve got clients, and the clients I have, I really like. I look forward to speaking to and working with them. I am chasing ease and giving myself space to breathe spiritually and physically. I’m taking the all noise and marketing BS and setting it on fire, and finding my own way at my own pace. I’m only putting out content when my heart feels it and sharing it just for the sake of sharing. No big 1:1 offers, just wee bitty things here and there. Y’all know where to find me if you need me. Trusting the universe to work out the details is my only “plan” right now.

What am I working on is…ME. Acceptance, joy, trust and trying to be a little better than I was yesterday all while still loving who I was yesterday.

Just a loving reminder that you’re alright just the way you are and a slow roll still counts.

Your Auntie Aurelia